Social Avoidance

Murphy's Law; If you tell the boss you were late for work because you had a flat tyre, the next morning you will have a flat tyre.




Well, if I'm already having a persistent sinus, it won't make any difference if I lie that I have a flu rite? 

You know you are lazy or moody when you choose to cancel a favourite activity.

I was secretly praying for rain today so I could cancel the beach plans, but I eventually decided to use my nose as an excuse.


I have been avoiding social gatherings lately and dying to get out of them whenever I'm in the midst of one simply because I don't really feel like talking and I'm sick of faking a smile in front of people. Physically, I am with my friends, but my mind and soul aren't. I am so distracted by my own worries.




Was feeling kinda out of place at Adrina's party yesterday. I was feeling very much drained already but I just had to attend my God-daughter's birthday party despite having to go alone. I love seeing the cheeky smile on the lil' one's face. 

Adeline felt bad for not being able to sit down with me, but I did not mind; understood she had to entertain others as well and I was pretty fine sitting alone, spacing out. However, Gene had to come rub it in about me coming alone, intentionally or unintentionally. I miss the Harbishers. Was glad we had the chance to face-time with them after all the guests left.




Trying very hard to keep my thoughts away by keeping myself occupied with chores. 

It really is pointless dwelling on 'I should have done this and that for my health' and worrying about my plans should there it be bad news about my health.

I sleep more, I feel tired. I sleep less, I feel more tired. I'm hopeless.

I have taken so much water and medication over the last one year, I am scared of them already.


"The what-if's and the should-haves will eat your brain" -- John O' Callaghan.